Best date of my life :)

No, this does not mean I went on a date recently.

Because I didn't.

This date I'm going to tell about happened over a year ago,

sometime in July.

Technically it wasn't a "date" because me and the other party said so.

But it pretty much was.

I was still dating Ty at that point, but whatever.

So, it was with a guy I had known for about a year, and we finally said
"Hey, we should hang out sometime."

Yeah, 'hang out.'

Date.

Anyway, I had got a bunch of Coldstone gift certificates

from some people I had taught in Swim Lessons that session, so I was like

"Dude, I have gift certificates to Coldstone, let's use them!"

So, we set a date for after I got off work one day,

I offered to go get him since I was paying,

but he was like "No, I'll come get you, no biggie."

I told him my address, and he found my house,

which like, never happens.

So we drove down to Coldstone, over by 7eleven, 

and we got our ice cream and just kinda talked about life,

but that was basically all we had planned, so afterward, he

was like "so, now what?"

I was like "I don't know..."

so he said "How about we go to D.I. and just kinda look at all

the old stuff?"

I was like "Ok, sure!"

So we went over to D.I. and we ended up looking through all

the old records, and broken type writers,

all that D.I. has to offer.

I found this super cool wallet that was teeny, and he was like

"I'll get that for you."

It was 75 cents.

Not a big deal.

Then he found a BYU hat that he fell in love with, so he ended up buying that.

After we were done at D.I., we were just kinda driving around, 

and his friend ended up calling him and was like 

"Dude, come watch a movie with me and my girlfriend!"

And he was like "You cool with that?" To me.

I was like "I'm chill."

So we needed to go find a movie to watch, so we were

just going to go to Redbox and get one, but we didn't

have a credit card, and his parents weren't home,

so we ended up going to his grandparents' house

and borrowing his grandma's.

She was an awesome lady :) it was funny though,

when we first walked into her house, she was like, 

"Are you guys on a date?"

and we were both like "Nooooo!"

And she just said "Ok, good, cuz [        ] has his mission to go on."

and I was like "Oh, I know, I know."

When we were leaving, he was like "Ok, see you Grams"

then he went up and kissed her on the cheek and gave her a hug

and I was like 

Because seriously, what 18 year old guy treats his Grandma that way???

Like, none of them!!!

So then, I'm like "Dude, you are awesome!"
*In my mind*
We went and got the movie, we ended up choosing this one called
Unknown.
It's got Liam Neeson in it.
Babe.
When we went over to his friend's house, I felt a tad bit
awkward, just because I was like "ok, I don't know anybody here
except [            ]."
We went downstairs, and his friend and the girlfriend were being all
cuddly on the couch, then me and [             ] were just sitting awkwardly
next to each other, like, 3 feet away from each other.
I had never seen Unknown, so I didn't really know what to expect, but I get
scared really easily. Let's just lay that right out on the table.
So, like, 1/4 of the way through the movie, it gets to this one part where
Martin Harris (the main guy [Liam Neeson])
is walking down these stairs to the Subway in Germany, and he starts
hearing footsteps behind him.
[            ] had decided to ditch the couch and was laying on the floor,
but as soon as it got to that part,
I was like "[           ], get up here! I need you!" 
So he came up and sat next to me, but he couldn't put his arms around me,
because I had a boyfriend...
So, we sat side by side, leaning in towards each other so our shoulders were touching.
That's how he comforted me,
and made sure I wasn't scared.
Lame.
But it worked.
After the movie (which was awesome, by the way, I recommend it)
was over, we went into his friend's back yard and made a fire.
After not too long though, [          ] said that he should probably take me home,
because it was getting kind of late.
We went back to his car, and on the way home, the song
"Party Rock Anthem" came on the radio,
and we danced crazy in our seats every time the shuffle music started.
It was awesome!
I have never had a date that good ever before, or since.
 And no, that is not a challenge,
because nobody can top it.
Period.
As simple as it was, it was purely amazing.

I hate singles wards.

Warning: If you are opposed to "language", do not read this post.  I swore a lot in it, because "dang it" and "crap" really didn't cut it.

  
I never want to go to a singles ward.

I hate them.

The only real purpose of the whole damn organization is to get young people to pair off and get married.

And they're all like parasites.  If you're not in a singles ward, they come after you.

They bug you about coming to activities.

Then even your friends suddenly turn and start saying "come "hang out" with us" when it's a singles ward activity.

I am so freaking sick of this shit.

I'm NOT going to a freaking singles ward.

Ever.

Yes, I have some very exaggerated anger about this.  I don't care.

You wanna know what happened?

So, Nathan texted me yesterday, asking if I wanted to go play Frisbee with some "people".  I even asked him if it was a singles ward thing and he said "no, it's just a bunch of us hanging out."

So I figured I was ok.

After work, which, by the way, it was a 10 hour day for me today, I texted him asking if they were still planning on doing Frisbee, and he said "yeah, if you're coming." Feeling pressured, I decided to go.

When I got there, I saw a whoooole lot of people I didn't know, and I knew Nathan doesn't have that many close friends.

I started to get suspicious, but I stayed, because I didn't want to cause a big scene, and I had no way of getting home.

The game was going ok, till some dick-head started taunting me because I was calling out to my teammates to watch out for the next move the opposite team was going to make. I knew it was coming, but they didn't respond quick enough. The guy was like "aren't you supposed to be playing for your own team?" And I just kind of ignored him, but then he was going on about how I "didn't know which team I was on"

so I just looked ahead of me and said "I don't need you to tell me how to play the game." 

and walked off.

Later, this other kid came and was being all up-in-your-face type thing, 

which really annoyed me.

There was one time, somebody threw the Frisbee and Nathan caught it, but this other guy grabbed onto him, so Nathan threw him over his shoulder and slammed him onto the ground.

And the guy started trash-talking him.

Like "don't be a dick. is it illegal for me to go after the frisbee? That not ok with you?"

So I called over "you freaking grabbed him."

And the guy glared at me.

The game kept going on, eventually people just stopped trying to talk to me, probably because I was being so bitchy to everyone.  Someone threw the Frisbee really hard, and this kid tried to catch it, but ended up tumbling and falling to his knees, but then he didn't get up.

So I ran over and asked if he was ok, he said his shoulder hurt really bad, and he figured out that he broke his collarbone.

He didn't want me to touch him, so I was trying to keep my distance, but then this kid (the one that grabbed onto Nathan) comes over and started rubbing his hand all over the kid's shoulder!

So I was like "dude, don't touch it."

And he looked up at me and snaps "I'm very good at what I do!"

He's a physical therapist.

He deals with people AFTER they've been injured and have received emergency care.

I could tell that this asshole wasn't going to take anything from me, so I had no choice but to back off.

 He slinged the kid's arm, but he did it wrong, then he told the kid "K dude, you need to stand up so we can take you to the car."

The f*** was this guy thinking???

He stood the kid up, he took one step, and the kid turned white. Like, gonna pass out white, which he did.  He went limp, and they were like "Oh shit, we gotta lay him down." So I supported his head, and managed to get someone to strap his arm to his waist so it wouldn't move.  That was one thing that was done right.

They never called an ambulance, but they got him into a car so they could drive him to the hospital.

I was so livid though.

They did not take care of that kid right.

But who the hell was I to say anything? I was a newbie to this "ward" so I had no idea what the fu I was doing, apparently, even though this is part of my JOB!

After the kid was taken away, everybody left, except me and Nathan. We walked around for a bit and Nathan told me some things that had happened lately, but I really wasn't in the mood to talk.  

He kept trying to get me to talk about it, but really, I was kinda pissed at him.

He'd basically kinda tricked me into coming to this damn "activity" in the first place.

We got into his car, and we started driving, and I just said "I want to go home."

We drove in absolute silence for the rest of the ride.

When we got to his house, I decided to as him something.

"I have one question for you."  

"Ok, what?"  He asked all innocently.

"Was this FHE for your singles ward?"

He looked at me like it was a no-duh, and said "yeah."

I grabbed onto the door of the car, and after I opened it, I said "Stop inviting me."

He tried making excuses, but I didn't listen.  I just said "I don't want to come to any of your singles ward crap anymore."  

Then I shut the door and went inside.

Happy 1-year Anniversary!

Of me being single!

Not quite sure how I feel about it,

but it's fine.

Especially because this marks the beginning

of something even better :) 

Something that makes me very happy.

So it's all worth it.

I have a crazy story though!

Last night, I was at a party with my 

high school friends, and it was all fine and dandy,

we always have a lot of fun.

After it was over, I went to Peter's house to talk

to him, to see how he's doing.

He seemed to be doing just fine, and we

had a really good discussion about gospel stuff,

and how far he's come.

I won't go into details, because I haven't asked him

if I can put those details in here, and they're

rather personal.

So anyway, we talked until about 2 in the morning,

then I was like "oh boy, I oughta get home.."

But then we lost track of time again, and another

few minutes passed, and suddenly

both Peter and I got this feeling like I needed to leave

NOW.

Like, urgent.

So, he walked me over to my car, and the feeling kept

getting stronger.  He told me that I wasn't allowed to text

and drive, which I don't do anyway,

so no big deal, 

but then he said "you better text me as soon as you

get home."  which makes sense, because if I was getting

an eerie feeling concerning my friend, I'd want to know they 

got home safe.

When I left, I was super edgy the whole drive, but I started

out going the usual way that I go, but then I got this little impression

that I should take a different route, and this is the crazy part.

I had a very strong feeling that if I didn't, something, or

someone, would follow me home.

So, I did, and ended up taking a huge detour to my house, and as

soon as I got there, I booked it inside. 

I texted Peter as soon as I was inside, and I told him I was safe

but I told him about me taking a different route and the

feeling that I got about being followed.

This is the other crazy part.

He had the same feeling...

Coinsidence?

Nope.

I was probably saved from being kidnapped and raped 

outside my own house.

Kinda freaky to think about, and it's given me a bit of anxiety

to really think hard about it, but I am so thankful that

I listened to the little nudges I got from the Spirit.

And that Peter has fixed his life to where he can 

hear them too.

I'm so glad I didn't give up on him.

I thought I was going to hate today

The title pretty much sums it up.  I thought today was going to be the worst day of my life.  I had work at one o'clock today, and after work, I had Institute with Jason.

Ugh.

He's being such a dick lately, I didn't even want to go tonight because he would be in the same room as me.  I know that's kind of childish, but I think after all the crap he's pulled on me, I have a right to be really pissed off at him. 

But anyway, after Institute, I had the option of going to Peter's sister's wedding reception at his house.

Peter told me I should go, and that he was going to have my other friend Kaitlyn there as a date.

I was kinda like "ehhh, a date?" 

Then he told me that Fidget would be there, and he was going to have a date too. And another couple friends of theirs who are together would be there.

So then I'm like "soooo......I'm the 7th wheel? No thanks."

There's no way I could whip up a date in 2 hours, not to mention the fact that I didn't want to.

Cuz dating is stupid.

So yeah, by the time work was over, I was just like "I just don't want to go anywhere today. I might as well go to the movies by myself."

So as I was going home from work, I blasted music and screamed at all the other cars. I did not drive recklessly, but I was just getting some anger out. Turns out my family was leaving right as I got home so then I was like "GREAT!" 

-.-

Then I go in my room, and I get a friendly little reminder that I'm not alone at all, that I just need to be patient.  It's funny how the Lord works. You think you're at the lowest of lows, and suddenly He lifts you out of the darkness and back into the light.  

So, I'm going to Institute and the reception.

The Lord will be my date tonight.

:)