You're cute, even over the phone...

Cutest thing happened last night!

So, I will admit this openly,

adjusting to "normal" life has been really hard.

It's hard to see or find meaning in 

anything I do nowadays. 

Days go by, and I just feel like "really? 

it's only been that long?"

Because it feels like forever.

So, I've been having a bit of a struggle with it,

and last night I just couldn't handle it by myself,

so I asked Ricky if I could call him when he 

got home from where ever he was.

He said I definitely could,

so then it was just the waiting game.

It was interesting, I asked if I could call him,

but he called me.  

I thought that was a really cute gesture.

As we were talking, I was pretty much just

venting, telling him everything about how I was

feeling, and sometime during the conversation,

I got emotional and started to cry a little bit.

But, being me, of course, I was trying

to swallow it and hide it.

At one point, he asked me a question,

and I was trying to answer, but I had a huge

lump in my throat, so I paused for a minute.

He asked if I was ok, to which I responded

that I was fine, and then he asked if I was crying,

to which I just said "maybe..."

and he said "I can hear it."

Me, being myself, I said "I'm trying not to."

and he responded by saying "I can tell, 

I know you don't like to, but it's ok. You can

let it out."

If we were in person, and he touched me

when he said that, I probably would have totally

melted and everything would have come out.

But, it was just over the phone,

so I held myself together.

 It was so sweet though, after I'd explained

everything about how I was feeling and why,

he had me read a couple scriptures that pretty much

said exactly what I needed to hear.

And we told each other that we would remind

each other to both read and pray, so neither of us

will forget.

It's funny, sometimes he talks really fast 

on the phone and I have to ask him to repeat what 

he just said.

It was really interesting though, at the end of our

conversation, we were talking about

personality types.  I had taken the "16 Personalities"

test and figured out that I'm an "ISFJ".

But anyway, we were talking about that, and 

Ricky told me that his result was an ESFJ,

so very similar to mine, but he's more of an extrovert

than I am.

So, after we got off the phone, I was a total creep 

and looked up the personality profile for ESFJ.

And, I liked everything I read!